Think about your dad
You can't help but feel confused about your father. On the one hand, there are millions of people's blood on his hands, he has created countless bioweapons, holds every single nuclear weapon on earth, could make the world enter nuclear winter at any time, and is insane to the point of driving his own empire to general absurdity. He's genuinely a cartoon villain, you can't think of any other way to describe him.
But on the other hand...